Turn To Be Better

Have you ever wondered why you are here? Well, I have. Not that long ago I tried to deny reality and just stop everything there... Wait. Hold up, boys and girls! I didn’t mean it in a bad way. Haha!

            Assalamualaikum and hello dear readers! I am Siti Salwanizah binti Tujuh (65225). I am currently in my first year taking a degree of counseling. Before this, I studied at Pra-U Unimas for my foundation year in life science course at the east campus. Let me share a little bit about my life there before I tell you guys why I choose my title like that. Okay, when I came to Sarawak for the first time, I really didn’t know what to expect. I did hear about Sarawak a little bit from my teachers (I have two teachers from Sarawak but both speak English). I continued my study here without any friends of relatives. So I basically just shut my doors. I didn’t really tried to highlight myself(low profile) and always hide behind my new friends. And what I can tell you what I get from one year in Foundation is it feels like I am in a dorm. Just like a secondary school that lives in the dorm but in somewhat slight different, that is not strict. The student can go out freely at night and wander around college freely sometimes. I didn’t like going out that much so I didn’t know many people and I always stick to the same people I know. To conclude my life at that time, I am not that active and not sociable. Seriously.

            But it’s not all that bad actually. My one year experience in my foundation year is helping me in living my degree life. I didn’t feel threaten or afraid at all when I start to enter my degree life because I survive foundation year, so I am capable to continue the journey. Even though I know that my close friends in foundation year are taking a different course from me and I couldn’t depend on them already, I have more self-confidence in degree than in foundation year. I feel like I need to become someone more sociable and active as I know I need to start believing in myself and stop depending on someone else. I join many programs and get to know new people. I wanted to learn new things and show people what I am capable of.

            Basic helping skill class was the second class that I entered in my degree life. When I entered basic helping skill class, I get to know many people from my course. The lecturer briefly introduced herself. Then the first activity was to introduce ourselves and share what is our strength. Quite nerve wrecking I tell you. I really thought that “oh, I should make a good first impression, so I gather my courage and just say what I think about myself. Fiuhhh, it when well, thanks Allah. After that, the lecturer briefly explains what’s her subject is about and tell us about all the assignment and what to do and expect throughout the semester. I am both excited and scared of the assignment because to me, that’s quite a lot of assignment and some of them really need to apply all the skills that will be learned throughout the lecture. I just hope that I can manage to do all of it… Fighting!! Ganbate!!