Better Me

Hi again! I'm back in here after few weeks. How is everyone doing? I am sure we are all busy with assignments and the final exam is coming as well. I admit that I am not prepared  and haven't do any revision yet. But. I believe that with strong will we can do this!


Anyway, I want to share what had it been like for me these past few days. For your information, I have always been inferior with my appearance and personality. I have this thought about how bad I am inside out. I always put a high standard on myself and cried it all out at the end of the day. But then, when I pray at night before I go to bed, it always comes into my mind that My God loves me. Loves me more than anything in this world. So maybe I should appreciate myself a bit more?

I thank Him because He always show me His sign of love everyday. And this made me feel better and I went to bed with a more assured heart. I know I shouldn't have too much negative thoughts on myself. I wanted to be a counselor right? So how can I help others when I can't even accept myself? I want to love myself as how my God loves me. His love is greater than anything and I am proud to be  loved by Him.


With this thought, I walk out to class feeling better about myself. I promised myself to try to accept myself bit by bit everyday. Becaus I am worth it. Because I am worth of the love. Because I deserve to love myself too. I also have 2 particular songs that motivates me everyday. They are "Epiphany" and "Love Myself" by BTS. These two songs deliver the message of self love and self acceptance. I listen to these songs to somehow keep myself up. 

And my family who always showers me with love, I thank you so much. I want to be a better me so that I can make my family happy. Without my family, I don'y even know how or who I am today. Being a better means a lot because I want to be able to love myself at the end.

In "Epiphany" by BTS, there are these lyrics that touched my heart. "I'm the one I should love, in this world. Shining me". These words caught my attention. And also the lyrics in " Love Myself" that says "You've shown me I have reasons, I should love myself". You can see why these two helps me a lot in my struggles. How this group called BTS helps people all around the world through their musics and songs.

I thank my God, my family and BTS for making me see how much love we have in this world.

Thank you.

Merrylynn Sulaiman (66624)