A Letter of Gratitude

Good morning/ afternoon/ evening everyone. I'm Lim Jue Xin (Jessie) with the matric number 66480. This would be my second entry on my reflection journal, so I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to everyone whom I've met and thrived along on this journey up until now.

     The individual assignment was all about us, all about ourselves. We get to write about ourselves and be able to visualize better about who we are. To me, it was easy when I was doing the front part for example writing about myself, my favorite song, my family, then moving on to writing about how we manage our behavior and the three things exercise. 

     Those were easy. 

     I found myself got stuck at writing the letter of gratitude.

     I find it difficult not because I did not have anyone to be thankful for.

     I find it difficult because it was meant for someone who I have not properly thanked before, it was painful and saddening to even think about it .

     I knew who I was going to write it to but I just could not bring myself to write it because I would cry even before I start typing.

    Until a few days before the individual assignment submission deadline, I had no choice but to force myself in order to write it. It was a very short one, but it took me 2-3 hours because as a professional crybaby, I had to cry while writing it.😆😆😆

     The letter, was meant for my mother. Cliche, but she was the first person who comes up in my mind. You can even say that I'm a Mama Girl, well, which is quite true actually. I'm very fond of my mother. Even now, my mother and I would talk to each other every day. Sometimes when it was just an ordinary day, we talked about those trivial things like discussing about the weather, like what happened to our tortoise pet, like what happened in our neighborhood. It almost felt like I haven't left home. Of course, I'm always back to the reality. But it felt very reassuring to have someone who loves you and give you all their support. 

     Now that I'm 613 miles away from home, I've met so many people, so many beautiful encounters, without her being by my side. I kept her updated about the fun experiences I had, about the wonderful friends I have, just so she would not feel too worry about how I was doing here.

     So that she would not feel lonely when she was alone at home as my father goes to work.

     You see, the problem is... we talked so much everyday, but I've never properly thank her.

     I remembered when I was little, I would hate my mother every time when she punished me (but the funny thing is that the hatred never last for 10 minutes). We seldom apologize to each other even after we argued, but in the end both of us will take a step back without even asking the other to do it. We would just calm ourselves down separately and few hours later we can sit next to each other telling stories and laugh our days off. It felt natural because that was the way we interact with each other. Maybe that was the cause for every time when I was going to say something cheesy to my mother, it felt so awkward, even though we are close.

     I took her understanding for granted.

     Thank you, Mom.

     Okay. Enough with the sentimental part, life have to go on.

     For my group assignment, it was so fun. Though it was also the time that I realized just how far I am from who I want to be. How "beginner", how "novice" I am. Our group would like to keep the helping session as original and natural as we can (of course, it involved a little acting here and there). We did not even have a script for the role-play (though we do have a defined issue). It was impromptu. Over here, I would like to thank Pino and Merry for their help. 

The video above is the actual footage of myself still speaking softly even after being asked to speak louder... (HAHAHAHA I'm sorry, Director Pino, XD)

@Phyladelphia Papino Anak Entinggi  @Merrylynn Sulaiman  Thank you so much!

     Alright, that's for the group assignment. Now I would like to thank all my friends who have helped and supported me, or even, thanks for being my friend. You guys are a bunch of amazing people to hang out with.

     Last but not least, Thank you, Dr. Fatahyah Hj. Yahya, for Dr.'s teachings and guidance. It was a pleasure to be learning together.

     Everyone... Once again, I thank you for your kindness.

     May you be well and happy.